(Below are Jessica's thoughts on Chapter 2 of Just Enough Light for the Step I'm On. Please know that what we all learn from a study is usually different. Therefore we ask that if you feel like it, please share in the comments section what you got out of the reading as well. We're sure you'll lift someone's spirit!)
Beginning to See the Light was a great follow-up to chapter one and really made a lot of sense to me, especially with all the competing interests pulling at me as being the best way to help my son with autism.
In Chapter 2, Stormie compares the many sources of light in our lives that offer hope in our struggles but reminds us that there is only one true light that will never go out. That light comes from God. God’s light can brighten any darkness and can never be put out. Stormie give us the example of the darkness that King David went through in his life through immoral choices and bad relationships. God continued to illuminate David’s path, even in his state of darkness. God never allowed David to be destroyed because David always knew that God was the true light. Realizing that God is the one true light, how can I make sure that I am not misled by another source?
Throughout this chapter there are many comparisons of darkness and light. Though it is easy to see in our minds that light is God and darkness will lead us astray, it is not always so easy to call this in everyday life.
We experience emotions and situations that put us in a state of darkness when we are told that our child has autism. That darkness is made worse when others tell us there is no hope for our children. We desperately want to come out of that darkness and are especially vulnerable at this time. I remember feeling like someone had dropped me in the middle of the most confusing maze as I tried to figure out how to secure the right school setting, combination of therapists, doctors and other specialists. I didn’t want to miss the “one thing” that could be the missing link and felt compelled to learn as much as I could about all possible sources of help. To complicate this further, there is so much sadness and pain that it feels impossible to put one foot in front of the other.
I really like what Stormie says on page 23, “We will encounter people who fancy themselves to be our savior and want us to follow their light. But God does not have us follow a light. He has us follow Him. And He becomes our light.” I do think it is good to be well-informed and even better to have choices for our children. I believe that God wants to light our path as we find our way out of the darkness. We need to consult with Him, meditate on His words and find peace knowing that His light will guide us. Sometimes it takes a lot of faith to keep moving where God wants us to go when we can’t see the end result.
I also want to add that we have God to turn to for comfort in our sadness and despair. He wants to heal our hearts and fill us with His love so that we have the strength we need to face our challenges. He is our unfailing friend. It comforts me to know that when I stumble I can still regain my footing and find my way again because God’s light is always there. I am also greatly encouraged as I find my way in the darkness by other moms I meet who also shine God’s light on me with the compassion, insight and wisdom that their experiences have given them through autism.
“The true light that gives light to every man was coming into the world.”
When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life."
“I have come into the world as a light, so that no one who believes in me should stay in darkness.”